IS GUILTY F HER ACTIONS!!! AND NOW CALLING HERLSELF SELFISH!!!
weeeh,yesterday we bought a pirana and we named him perry..we went to his house in pasig to set up perry's new habitat..and when i got there i could sense something different..i wasn't afraid o anything but i could feel there was something going on and something will happened later..and right after dnner her mom starts to ask what are our plans in life??then i said priorit for now is work..then she started epressing her feelings and i was trying to ignore her words and just continue eating but i can't..maybe i was really not that bad at all though i try to shut people up still i do bother to listen..as it goes i could feel her mom's emotions and fuck my tears are coming and then the words striked me "ZEDY, SI BUROG LANG ANG BUHAY KO!" fuck, i feel so guilty and selfish..her words seems like before gabbiee's life used to be them then when i came it "ME" and they're out of the scene..then this line also striked me "AYOKONG MAG-FAIL SA PAGPAPALAKI KAY BROG KASI SIYA LANG ANG ANAK KU!!" fuck ouch dba..tangna MANGAAGAW TALAGA AKU EH NOH!!!i guess yan na lang ata papel ku sa buhay..haha..ampotek i stil have the guts to laugh..as in i cried with her for a while and stopped coz i dn't want to cry no more and i know if i do i would have been more emotional than her..coz after all she's been a mom to us the whole time and we're just ignoring her..waaahhh...i spent the whole night crying and nakatulog na din ata aku sa kakaiyak..huhuhu..

sorry tita elong..i really don't know what to say..