yesterday is my mom's birthday but i didn't had the chance of celebrating it neither do lighting a candle for her and also i didn't go to church. i informed gabbiee last week if we could go there and light candle for her or at least go to curch but we did not. coz he was out buying fishes and ding some fishy stuffs. i was so sad until late last night i could never imagine myself that way parang wala nakong paki alam sa kanya na in the end i was the one hurt for her. i missed her so much and i feel sorry for my actions. then last night before i went to sleep i was thinking if what could have been the most saddest thing that hasn ever happened to me?? was is when i lost those people i dearly loved the most?? or was it to b ignored by the person i choose to love?? i can't decide which of these two is much more painful? my mom and my uncle left me for good but they still bother to care and love me even when i don't see them. but with him i don't know what to do anymore. he used to shut me up maybe not all the time but he used to do that and for him it was unintentional. though was hurt i still bother to forgive him and love him more. haiz. nothing's changed.

masaya ka ba kapag ginagawa mu yun?